Testimony of Healing May 30, 1936 Issue

Christian Science was presented to me twenty-six years...

Carrie Balaban

Christian Science was presented to me twenty-six years ago by a friend who had been healed of tuberculosis. I was suffering at the time from what was called ulcerated stomach and chronic dysentery. I had spent four months in bed, being attended by good doctors and stomach specialists, who agreed that I should never be well and strong. My diet was to be forever limited to soft-boiled eggs, boiled rice, boiled milk, and toast. Any deviation from this seemed to cause intense suffering and weakness. Being under twenty, I very much desired to be well, and when Christian Science was offered as a remedy I eagerly accepted it. However, before long, I realized that it was also the remedy for my great hearthunger to know God, and the greater joy came to me from the knowledge that God is my loving Father-Mother. The healing of pain and suffering which followed soon after was of far less importance.

From the beginning of my study I found Christian Science satisfying as a healing agent. It has never failed me during all these years through the varying experiences that come with childbirth and the rearing of a family. The births of our three children were attended by definite proofs of God's care, sought and realized through Christian Science. In the first two cases this understanding was applied to remove discordant conditions which might have otherwise proved fatal to both mother and child. The third experience was entirely harmonious from start to finish, showing that I had gained a far better understanding of God. These three little ones have never known any other remedy than Christian Science, and through its daily application are developing in wisdom, stature, and strength. We are grateful for its revelations regarding our responsibility as parents, finding joy instead of burden as we lean on God for guidance in this direction. We are invariably blessed and humbled by the realization that God is the only creator, and we are consequently relieved of fear and anxiety for their well-being, knowing His love to be ever constant.

For several months after the birth of our first child I suffered from gallstones, and when the sickness seemed to have reached its peak in violence my husband took me to Boston for the purpose of visiting The Christian Science Benevolent Association Sanatorium. We were told that there was no vacancy, but that we should be notified as soon as there was. While sitting in the wooded park, where we were told we might stay until five o'clock, I was suddenly confronted with the fear that I might not get well. A great wave of desire to bare my heart to God forced me to acknowledge a hatred that I had allowed to linger uncorrected for many years against a member of my family. I felt as if I literally tore it out of my consciousness as I said to myself: "I am responsible for having only love in my heart. I cannot be made to hate."

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