Testimony of Healing October 29, 1938 Issue

When I contrast the unhappy years before I began to...

Ruth Beverly Holmes

When I contrast the unhappy years before I began to apply the truths of Christian Science with the happy present, I can say with Job, "I know that my redeemer liveth."

From my earliest recollection, our family seemed to be in a deep pit of fear, unhappiness, sickness, and poverty, a dark cloud of cruelty shutting out all hope that the condition would ever become better. Through the encouragement and kindness of our neighbors, who saw our desperate plight, we became interested in Christian Science, and a transformation began to take place. My mother was healed of heart trouble and other serious complications for which the doctors had offered no hope.

It was not until many years later, however, that I was healed of a more difficult malady than sickness, namely, a bitter hatred and resentment. I finally collapsed with a nervous breakdown, accompanied by heart trouble and high blood pressure so severe that it brought on convulsions. For many months I was so much afraid of these attacks and of passing on, that it seemed as if I should lose my mind, and if it had not been for my small children I should have ended it all quickly. After a long period of black discouragement, during which time I repeated over and over passages from Science and Health and our hymns, the patient kindness of a friend who had become a practitioner, changed my dim concept of God's love into clear conviction. I began to see that since God is eternally All, error has no history, and that as an individualized expression of God, I never had had a single experience apart from good. I am deeply grateful that other dreams of a life apart from God have disappeared.

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