My study of Christian Science was prompted by a desire...

My study of Christian Science was prompted by a desire to find a way out of a nervous condition. For nine years up to 1914 I had been supervisor of music in the public schools of a large city in the South. During the summer vacation, my peace of mind received a shake-up. I became tormented by the thought that my work was not satisfactory to myself or to those with whom I was connected.

The mental condition that I stirred up for myself was pitiful. I took bromide through the day and sleeping powders at night to quiet my nerves, as I thought. I even planned suicide. School was about to open, and I knew I had to ask for a leave of absence. My thought was that I was done for. I felt that there was no other work I could do and that consequently I should starve. At this point, I went in desperation to a girlhood friend of my mother's. She was the first Christian Scientist I had ever known. She lovingly directed me to a practitioner, and after four months of constant treatment, I was able to return to the South and take up my duties, not, however, happily at first; but as I read the Lesson-Sermons in the Christian Science Quarterly, attended church services, and did the best I knew how, the beautiful truth that unfolded was like the opening of a rosebud and was fragrant with the spirit of Love. I see now that this awful experience was a blessing in disguise which came to me that I might be brought out of the darkness of material thinking into the sunlight of Truth.

Six years after that, another error attached itself to me, causing me to lose every cent I had. I thought I ought to resign the position referred to, and I did so two years later. Had I known more of God and the real man I could have defended myself and been protected, but I had not been faithful enough in gaining a sufficient understanding to do this. Seemingly, I have had to get my lessons by very hard knocks, but I realize that by these I have gained a knowledge of the real and enduring.

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Testimony of Healing
It is with profound gratitude that I give this testimony
July 4, 1936

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