Testimony of Healing June 2, 1934 Issue

It is with a heart filled with gratitude to God, the...

Ann D. Star

It is with a heart filled with gratitude to God, the Father-Mother of us all, that I wish to testify to the positive answers to prayer that we receive in Christian Science.

Some years ago I was living in a big city with a large family of children. Rents were very high and children not welcome in many places, and domestic inharmony made the way very dark at times. Finally it became necessary for me to seek another home in a suburb near a small town. At first it seemed very lovely in the country, but within a few weeks all the promises made by the real estate company failed one after another. This resulted in no transportation during the day, defective sewerage, and impure drinking water. When the fall rains came the basement filled to the depth of three or four feet, making a furnace fire impossible and necessitating the use of stoves. Just at this time, when the way to human sense already seemed very dark, it became necessary for me to assume the added obligations of being father as well as mother to these little ones.

One day I consulted with a practitioner, who always had been loving and unselfish with me day or night. The thought of separation from the children until I could become established was persistent. During this talk the practitioner gave me this citation from "Miscellaneous Writings" (p. 253), "A mother's love touches the heart of God, and should it not appeal to human sympathy?" Also Jesus' statement, "And whosoever doth not bear his cross, and come after me, cannot be my disciple." During my journey home a frenzy of fear presented itself to me: fear of separation from my children and a breaking up of my home. Resentment, self-pity, self-will, self-righteousness, and self-justification, together with condemnation, criticism, and a sense of injustice came to the surface with such vehemence that in my human sense of anguish I wept bitterly. After leaving the bus I had a long walk and it was during that walk that my peace came. My prayer had been heard by the great God of love, and this peaceful answer was given to me: "Be still, and know that I am God." I had surrendered the dearest false god I had; the false god of aristocratic lineage, the false belief that any honest service which was menial was degrading, or beneath me.

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