Testimony of Healing October 25, 1930 Issue

When I first heard of Christian Science I ridiculed it;...

Felix M. Krembs

When I first heard of Christian Science I ridiculed it; that is, I ridiculed what I thought it was, until someone I knew was healed by the application of its teachings. Then I was convinced that Christian Science taught the truth of being and decided that some day I would look into this religion; but I was too busy with personal opinions, self-will, dissipation, and what I then thought was having a good time. It was not until I was nearly overwhelmed by the fear of insanity and constant thoughts of suicide that I really turned to Christian Science.

Because of these personal opinions and this self-will in all its different guises, the healing was very slow; but I am grateful for this, because I learned so many valuable lessons. First and foremost I had to be honest. I could not keep on wanting to be healed of a disease so that I could go back to dissipation and a sinful life: I had really to want to know more about God. Then, too, I had to stop having medical treatment while hoping to be healed in Christian Science. I learned that I had to do my own work: I had to study the Christian Science textbook, "Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures" by our beloved Leader, Mary Baker Eddy. No one could do this work for me. It was right for me to have help from a loyal practitioner, for which I am very grateful; but I had to study and apply what I learned, for only thus would I be ready for more understanding. I am grateful that I did not stop when I came to a passage I did not understand. I went right on, somehow knowing that some day I would understand.

In spite of criticism, I broke away from old associates who might hinder my progress in Science, and this made application easier, although I had to overcome loneliness. But when I understood more of my relationship to God, our Father-Mother, everlasting Love, the way was easier. I found the Bible and Mrs. Eddy's writings good company. I also had to give up criticizing and judging my friends and neighbors, for I saw that if I believed they could express anything but good, then I must think that I could too.

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