Testimony of Healing April 20, 1918 Issue

The number of benefits my family and I have received...

Louisa E. Bell

The number of benefits my family and I have received from the study and practice of Christian Science are countless, but there is one experience I would like especially to relate, as it may help others. For some time there had been a problem before me which had to be worked out, and I knew that Christian Science, rightly understood, could do it; but from whatever point I looked at it, there appeared a reason why no step could be taken—either fear of harming others or myself, or fear of what would be thought or said, invariably kept me from taking the only step which came to me repeatedly as the right one.

One morning, on getting up, I experienced a great sense of pain and weakness in the knees, and finding that I was likely to be late, being unable to move quickly, I did not stop to treat myself as we are taught to do in Christian Science, but passing over a suggestion of age or infirmity creeping on, with a casual thought that it could not affect me and I would soon be all right, I dressed and went to breakfast. Various things occupied my time and attention, till in the latter part of the day the trouble became much worse, with an extraordinary feeling that the knee joints were out of their sockets and the legs useless. Then I awoke to the fact that I had to do some earnest Christian Science work, and I remembered that there were several texts in the Bible which referred to "feeble knees;" but not one of them could I recall.

With the desire to find these texts I got to another room with much difficulty by holding on to the furniture, and taking up the Bible concordance found the word knee with a view to getting the references. Before the references, however, there is a note giving the different significations and uses of the word, and I read, "to worship, to pray, to be in subjection." The last word arrested my attention. That was my need—subjection; and that again means to be humble—not to any person, but before God. Then came the thought that my earnest desire was to do the right thing, but I feared the consequences of the only step I saw to take. Then gently came Mrs. Eddy's words (Science and Health, p. 89), "We are all capable of more than we do." What more could I do? Just let my own will go and know that it is what is right in God's sight that has to be done. I still held the concordance; I had not found the texts about the "feeble knees," but gladly resolved to leave the whole problem that had troubled me, till I knew God's will. There came a call which I had to answer, and I at once put down the book and went without hesitation. The knees were absolutely well. Next morning I saw the right step to take in connection with the above mentioned problem. It was the same that had come to me for months past, the difference being that I had let my will go and was ready to do God's will without fear of consequences.

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