Testimony of Healing October 3, 1914 Issue

Five years ago, while suffering from an acute intestinal...

Letha R. Morgan with contributions from J. D. Morgan

Five years ago, while suffering from an acute intestinal disease, the after effects of what was named "Asiatic cholera," I began to read Science and Health merely out of curiosity to know something of the teaching of Christian Science, rather than with any hope of being benefited. For eighteen months prior to this I had faithfully applied the medicines prescribed by the physicians, with no good results whatever, and I was fast becoming resigned to what seemed to be an incurable disease. I then believed God was responsible for disease and death; that these were the divine methods of making us love Him more. Filled with a depressing dread and fear of a God whom I believed responsible for my acute suffering, ignorant of any known means of escape from that which I believed He had decreed for me, and finding it impossible to love a creator whom I deeply feared, I had become bitter and was hopelessly discouraged.

At this point my attention was attracted to this sentence: "It is our ignorance of God, the divine Principle, which produces apparent discord, and the right understanding of Him restores harmony" (Science and Health, p. 390). I was then led to the next step in my search to understand the true and living God in the definitions of God as found in this text-book. A careful study of these brought the comforting assurance that an all-loving God could not create disease and suffering. Then followed an earnest search for the underlying cause of my suffering, which was soon answered in that wonderful statement: "Fear is the fountain of sickness" (Science and Health, p. 391).

Ignorance of the true meaning and nature of God, fear of what I believed Him to be, and the sin of wrong thinking about Him and His creation, was indeed the source or cause of my many ills. Realizing fear to be but a false belief in evil as a power, how could this be true when God is infinite good? Ignorance, the supposed absence of truth, could not be a reality if infinite Mind, intelligence, was All-in-all. Sin, the belief in a power aside from good, was disobedience to the first commandment, "Thou shalt have no other gods before me." Had I not been believing that evil was of God, hence as real as good?

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