Testimony of Healing November 12, 1927 Issue

I can never cease to be grateful for the wonderful change...

Muriel Sordes Ellis

I can never cease to be grateful for the wonderful change that Christian Science has made in my life. As a child I was never happy; I seemed to feel the uselessness of mortal existence even when quite young. When I was about thirteen years old I would often steal away in the evening from the other children at school and sit with a girl who was made to lie on her back day and night; and I would lay my head on her bed and just quietly cry for the sheer hopelessness of my outlook. I had everything that other girls had, but nothing gave me satisfaction; I could not take pleasure in anything. I began to feel better, however, until I was fifteen; then for about three months I felt so miserable and hopeless that I dreaded to get up in the morning, and I dared not think how I should live through the rest of my life. During that time my brother died, and this threw me into complete darkness.

When I was just nineteen years old I went to a Christian Science Sunday School, and gradually the truth dawned in my consciousness. A year or two later I transferred to a London branch of the bank I was working in, and a sense of loneliness took possession of me. I knew no one where I was working, nor anyone where I had my rooms. I hardly knew, moreover, how to get from one place to another. At this time, when I felt quite forsaken and lost, I found an article in The Christian Science Monitor in which the following sentences were quoted from page 266 of "Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures" by Mary Baker Eddy: "Would existence without personal friends be to you a blank? Then the time will come when you will be solitary, left without sympathy; but this seeming vacuum is already filled with divine Love. When this hour of development comes, even if you cling to a sense of personal joys, spiritual Love will force you to accept what best promotes your growth." I instantly saw that I was not forsaken, but that I was being taught a lesson which was necessary; and I have never ceased to be grateful for that lesson, because I realized that God is Principle, and as such is all-sufficient. When I had learned this lesson everything became harmonious, and I found the place where I worked and the place where I had rooms full of love and comfort. A kind practitioner read with me periodically, and later I was able to go through class, an experience that lifted me higher than I could ever have believed possible.

Since then life has been a wonderful unfoldment to me; and as each difficulty and temptation has been met, I have had more than a just recompense of further enlightenment. The joy and happiness that are constantly with me are now too deeply rooted to be readily shaken; and when I think of the difference in my outlook during the last ten years, I feel that words are but feeble to express my gratitude for Christian Science.—(Miss) Muriel Sordes Ellis, Rosherville, Gravesend, Kent, England.

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