I grew up as one of the younger members of a large family

I grew up as one of the younger members of a large family. I had faithfully attended a Protestant Sunday School, but I felt a lack of love and a driving desire to be loved and wanted. When a teenager, I attended a Christian Science Sunday School a few times, but I didn't seriously try to understand it, though I did remember learning that God is Love.

I married immediately upon graduating, thinking that finally this would solve my craving; however, it did not, and the fact that I seemed unable to have children cultivated the feeling of not being wanted. After many years we adopted a child, and soon after I had a child. I loved being a mother, but my desire to be loved never left me. Finally my husband and I had severe marital troubles, at which time I took up the study of Christian Science. My husband and I were divorced, and for the first time in my life I was left completely alone, except for our two children, in a strange town, with no friends or relatives and a limited income. Mrs. Eddy writes in Science and Health (p.266): "Would existence without personal friends be to you a blank? I hen the time will come when you will be solitary, left without sympathy; but this seeming vacuum is already filled with divine Love."

How true I found this to be! For in my extremity I diligently studied Science, and though there were many moments of deep depression, with the help of a practitioner and continued study I slowly found the peace and love that I had always yearned for. There were many testing periods, one in particular when both children became seriously ill at the same time, one with an ear infection and the other with a throat infection; but through my newfound religion, I had only a desire to place these children 'in the hands of Love, and their healings were manifested.

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October 29, 1966
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