Testimony of Healing March 10, 1945 Issue

I lost my mother when I was...

with contributions from Lilly Maud Martin

I lost my mother when I was a young girl. I was an only child, and she had been my constant companion, with the result that I had failed to make friends of my own age. At her passing I was so stricken with grief that although I had always been healthy I quickly lapsed into a nervous condition from which I was never well for more than two or three days at a time. This continued for six years, until, on being introduced "to Christian Science, I was healed entirely of the sense of separation and loneliness.

Later on the same problem presented itself when my husband passed on. This time I was not overwhelmed by self-pity and grief as I had been before. Two days earlier, when speaking of this possibility, my husband said. "It's you I am so worried about, for I know how much I mean to you." I was able to say, "My happiness does not and never did rest in you as a corporeal being; it emanates from God, whom you express in so many lovely qualities."

Some months later, when off my guard, I allowed myself to become so overwhelmed by another's sympathy that I sat in church with tears streaming down my face. I was watching the young couples coming in together when suddenly the suggestion came, "He'll never walk into church with you again." I was compelled to withdraw from the service and went into the foyer to recover. At first I was ashamed to be acting thus, because I knew I had never experienced a moment's grief or loneliness—in fact the whole of my married life had become a lovely memory as if it had taken place years before. In reaching out to God for a message I received this answer: "In Truth he never did walk into this church in a physical body." My tears stopped, and quite at peace I returned to the service. I can say with all honesty and humility that I have never experienced any sense of being alone.

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