As a young girl raised in a Christian Science Sunday School,...

As a young girl raised in a Christian Science Sunday School, I devoutly studied the letter of Christian Science and applied it as best I could. However, I often felt I was being force-fed the letter without much of the spirit to make it palatable.

My home was broken when I was young, and I was often depressed and unhappy. Feeling that I did not have a proper childhood home, marriage and family became of utmost importance to me. However, I had much fear regarding the establishment of a happy and permanent relationship. As a result I experienced many years of broken and unhappy relationships, governed by fear, possessiveness, and the like. These situations finally led me to believe that while the letter of Christian Science was beautiful, it was cold, inanimate, and impractical. In great bitterness I withdrew my membership in The Mother Church and turned from what I believed Christian Science to be.

Shortly prior to this time I had met an upstanding young man who I believed would bring me happiness and a sense of security. After ten years of marriage it seemed that I had all that could be desired. I had a successful husband, a lovely home, my health, four beautiful children, and many luxuries. However, I was miserable. I was socially insecure, frustrated, unhappy, and often depressed.

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December 1, 1973

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