Christian Science was first introduced to my family many...

Christian Science was first introduced to my family many years ago while we were resident at Otacamund, on the Nilgiri Hills, South India, when two ladies who were Christian Scientists took a kindly interest in my mother, to whom they sent their periodicals for some time. I was a child at that time, and though I did not so much as look within the covers of the papers my mother received, the seed of kindness those friends sowed so long ago has brought forth fruit after its kind, for I am now a grateful student of Christian Science.

About four years ago I was in a mental condition bordering on atheism, as the result of reading and thinking in an unsatisfactory search for a religion whose teachings any reasoning man could accept. Coupled with this mental condition there came a feeling of intense dislike of the work I was doing at that time. Everything seemed to conspire against my happiness. My salary seemed insufficient to meet my needs, and I had failed on five occasions to obtain more lucrative employment. This caused a feeling of bitter resentment against the people who, I believed, were deliberately preventing me from bettering myself in order to suit their own interests.

I could not reconcile my condition to the teaching that "God is love," and the inference to be drawn from other Biblical statements to the effect that He is omnipresent and omnipotent; nor could I bring myself to believe that this trouble came to me in the shape of a divine visitation, sent in God's "inscrutable" wisdom to prove His love for me and to test my faithfulness to Him. Trouble and poverty had always seemed to me to be divinely unnatural, and I felt that if a God existed at all, there was a right solution to such problems very far removed from human planning or conjecture. My search had brought me to the point where I resolved that if I did not quickly find a satisfactory answer to my doubts, then I was through with religion and everything connected with it. In this state of mental anguish I asked, like Pilate, "What is truth?"

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