Christian Science first came into my life when I was a...

Christian Science first came into my life when I was a young girl and when it was looked upon by the majority of people as a dangerous new religion. Several years passed before I accepted its teachings and ceased to ridicule it, though other members of the family had become students. When my mother passed on, I discovered that I had no religion to comfort or help me—nothing to answer my questions or to satisfy me. A member of the family at this time explained what Christian Science teaches concerning eternal Life, and said, "Heaven is not a locality, but a divine state of Mind" (Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures, by Mary Baker Eddy, p. 291). I was grateful for this light, for I saw that Life had not ceased for my mother, and that she could progress spiritually. The old belief of heaven as a place was corrected, and I began to glimpse the fact that we can find our heaven now and here on earth. It was at this time that I began to read Science and Health and to attend the Christian Science church. As the years passed, I took the steps of joining the church, having class instruction, and serving in some of the church activities. During these years Christian Science was the great inspiration of my life.

A few years ago a very serious test came to me, which was both alarming and discouraging in view of the fact that I had been earnestly striving for so long to prove the truth of Christian Science. Now that I am healed I count the result of trial as but another proof of God's love and protection. The experience to which I refer was a period of mental darkness and confusion, during which I seemed to be submerged and imprisoned in doubt, fear, and despair, and every ray of spiritual light seemed to have been swept from my consciousness. The persistent arguments and suggestions that I never again would attend the Christian Science church, that I had no friends, and that I could never be healed, were believed to be true—a complete reversal of all that I had accepted as the truth. The suffering and sadness were intense, and insomnia added to the sense of the utter hopelessness of life. It seemed to me that the joy of living would never be mind again; that I had nothing to look forward to as each new day dawned; and idleness to me was severe punishment.

I clung tenaciously for protection to the member of the family who had given me the first glimpse of the truth of Christian Science. Never shall I forget her patience in audibly declaring the truth, reversing every utterance of error and the lies that I voiced; nor shall I ever cease to be grateful to the loving practitioner who stood by, never giving up for an instant, in spite of the fact that I declared almost constantly that I never could be healed. Thanks to the power of God, of good, over evil, I gradually, and almost imperceptibly to myself, began to emerge from the shadow into the light, returning to church, finding friends lovingly waiting for me, not only old friends but many new ones, for I had gained a broader understanding of the brotherhood of man.

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April 27, 1929

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