Testimony of Healing February 10, 1912 Issue

I suppose that each student of Christian Science finds it...

Daisy Bedford

I suppose that each student of Christian Science finds it one of the most difficult things to express his deep gratitude in words for all that this truth has done for him. I did not come to Christian Science for physical healing, but for relief from the most acute mental depression and unceasing worry. Everything that appeared to human sense to make life worth living had been taken away from me—there seemed nothing left but a condition of hopeless despair. Like Elijah, my one prayer was that I might die, and on looking back I feel sure that if it had not been for Christian Science I should have died from sheer lack of desire to live. I had always loved the church of which I was a member, had striven to follow its teachings, and to practise them in my daily life, though with very small results; but now it could not comfort me or lift the veil of gloom of which I was ever conscious. Then Christian Science was presented to me,—and I shall never forget my first service! What impressed me most was the silent prayer, and the happy, bright, peaceful faces of those present. I had searched everywhere for Truth, and studied practically every form of religious belief extant, but never had I seen anywhere the joy, the peace, and the love which was reflected by the students of this Science.

From that moment I began to study Christian Science as I had never studied anything in my life, and I can honestly say that in a measure which I could never have imagined possible I have come to comprehend "what is the breadth, and length, and depth, and height: and to know the love of Christ." I was healed almost instantaneously of a lifelong habit of worry, and a fear of evil which from quite early days seemed to dog my footsteps. Physically I have been healed of a weak heart, short-sightedness, a sensitive throat, with a predisposition to severe coughs and colds, nervous exhaustion, and sleeplessness. For all this I am most deeply grateful, but as every student of Christian Science knows, it is for the spiritual regeneration, for learning if only in a small degree how to bring every thought into conformity to the Mind of the Christ, which causes us to rise up and call her blessed who has shown us the way.

Mrs. Eddy speaks in Science and Health of the tenacity of evil and of sin's obduracy (p. 569), and it is only as we progress in the understanding which comes to us through the study of our text-book that we are enabled to realize the truth of these words, and see how much there is to be overcome in consciousness. This overcoming may oftentimes prove a rough and stony path, but one has ever the encouragement of our Leader's teachings to support and strengthen. It is my daily prayer that I may be privileged to break to others the bread with which I have been so lovingly fed, and to offer the cup of cold water to Christ's little ones, thus living the gratitude I am unable to express.

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