Testimony of Healing July 20, 2009 Issue

RELEASING RESENTMENT HEALED ME

JEN MCLAUGHLIN

One day about four years ago, I noticed an unsightly wart on my hand. At first I ignored it, but then it began to annoy me. I realized I needed to be more proactive, so I turned to prayer as I've been taught in Christian Science—something I've done all my life when confronted with challenges of any kind.

My initial prayers addressed the situation on a physical level, so I was going about it all wrong. I acknowledged the wart as physically unwanted and unsightly, but it was as if I was trying to get prayer to remove it. Instead, I needed to turn my attention to the spiritual fact that God is Love itself, and my inherent perfection as God's loved child, God's reflection, meant I simply couldn't express any type of imperfection. As I continued to pray, I began to reason more correctly from this standpoint of intrinsic spiritual perfection, rather than using prayer to "fix." Soon, something that was uncovered in my thought surprised me.

At the time, I was enrolled in a rigorous MBA program in South Africa, and that term I was taking three very demanding finance and math-heavy courses. My advanced accounting class in particular was incredibly hard, and I often left the classroom feeling frustrated and stupid. Even though I was a hardworking and conscientious student, the professor took an obvious dislike to me and would either ignore me in class or answer my questions in a patronizing manner, which was often embarrassing. I fumed about his behavior, and as the days went on, all that self-righteous anger and hurt swelled up in my thought like a balloon.

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