"I fill a place, I know't"
The title's words are Shakespeare's, fitting the character of the wise and beloved old king in All's Well that Ends Well. All's Well that Ends Well, Act I, scene 2 . But I've often thought of them in a deeper sense, as stating a timeless fact that can be proved in Christian Science.
Scientifically speaking, we do each hold a place in God's spiritual kingdom, and we can know it. Our Father, our intelligent source, is God. We should increase our trust and confidence in His never-ending ability to provide justly for each of His children. His guidance enables us to use our God-given abilities in ways that best serve Him.
We may derive little comfort from our identity as immortal ideas of God if we believe the corporeal senses' denial of our heritage. Yet Christ Jesus proved that the spiritual standpoint is true and the material is false. "Like our Master," Mrs. Eddy says, "we must depart from material sense into the spiritual sense of being." Science and Health, p. 41. When we find our way spiritually, we find it humanly.
I was unemployed for months during an economic recession. Finally, one Sunday evening I was offered a position and went to work the next day. When the call came at that unlikely hour, I had momentarily forgotten the problem and was doing a good turn for someone else. This proved to me that unselfishness and humility aid us in discovering our already present spiritual completeness.
God cannot evolve an idea without having the precisely right place for it in the economy of being. Our need is to demand of ourselves greater willingness to let go of human planning and accept—and prove—our sonship with God. Understanding our heavenly Father's commitment to provide for each idea makes possible our security in His wise design.
If we see ourselves as mortals, seeking satisfying positions in a crowded material world, finding the place that is right for us may be challenging. But we are not in a crowded material world. "There is but one creator and one creation," Ibid., p. 502. Mrs. Eddy tells us. This creation is spiritual and complete. The temptation to rely on strong opinions for or against this place or that or to outline a particular result should be resisted. We must look beyond the material counterfeit creation and align ourselves with the truth of being. God, not persons, decides our place. Although good appears to come through persons, God is truly responsible for us. Our intelligent placement and useful activity result from our obedience to Him. When we put ourselves wholeheartedly into God's hands, recognizing that we must and do fill a place in the divine order, we can expect doors to open.
Do we believe there is overwhelming opposition to improving our lot, and do we doubt God's ability to help? We should never believe there is a question for which Mind does not have an answer. Mrs. Eddy writes, "To attempt the calculation of His mighty ways, from the evidence before the material senses, is fatuous." Unity of Good, p. 10.
Dispositional and other faults may hinder our finding a satisfactory niche. Procrastination, pride, anger, resentment, fear of all kinds, are disruptive elements and must be held in subjection to the Christ, the spiritual selfhood with which Jesus identified so thoroughly. We are victorious as we give central place to God and stay with Him and His Christ. We need never allow ourselves to be deceived that somehow evil has a place or an agent through which it works to harass us.
Our expression of God's qualities stimulates spiritual growth and increases our usefulness. The place we desire may be elusive unless we first measure up to it spiritually. By putting off inferior, mortal qualities and by putting on the new—love, wisdom, purity—we naturally gravitate to a happy niche. The carpenter's shop couldn't hold Jesus when his understanding of God burgeoned. The Christ qualities he embraced demanded demonstration. And look at his fruitage as teacher, healer, Saviour.
At times, we may face obstacles to our efforts to progress. For example, some statistics suggest that tall men frequently find it easier to achieve success in their careers than short men. But this tendency need have no more influence than one lets it. Instead, we can see—and be seen—not according to our height but rather to the degree we reflect God. The Bible informs us, "The Lord said unto Samuel, Look not on his countenance, or on the height of his stature; because I have refused him: for the Lord seeth not as man seeth; for man looketh on the outward appearance, but the Lord looketh on the heart." I Sam. 16:7. We need to ask ourselves, Who's in control—mortal man or God?
Sometimes our advancing steps in Science bring about a need for a more suitable residence. I decided to sell my house. Despite its desirability, the house did not attract a buyer. One day a fellow Christian Scientist, without knowing my problem, volunteered that he had put his house on the market with no results, until he realized he still wasn't prepared to mentally divest himself of it. As soon as he corrected this feeling of insecurity, recognizing Love's constant provision for him, the house was sold. I discerned the same error in my thought and rejected this limitation. Then my house, too, sold quickly. The divine law of progress uncovered and removed the error of stagnation and brought about a swift conclusion. Mrs. Eddy says, "Metaphysics resolves things into thoughts, and exchanges the objects of sense for the ideas of Soul." Science and Health, p. 269. A house, like everything else, is a mental concept. Neither our place nor our purpose is exterior to consciousness. Man has a unique place of God's designing where he can serve and glorify Him.