Testimony of Healing February 20, 1971 Issue

My first contact with Christian Science began a little over four...

Janice Kay Hawks

My first contact with Christian Science began a little over four years ago. As I rode the bus to work, I would notice a certain woman with The Christian Science Monitor under her arm. My resistance to Christian Science was so great at that time that I found myself disliking the woman simply because she carried the paper. Later, however, I met and married a Christian Scientist. At first I attended services with him occasionally, although I still resisted his religion. My husband's parents and grandmother were Christian Scientists, and I came to love them dearly with a love I had never expressed to anyone else before. I realized that they had something in their home and daily life that I wanted.

After a few months I began attending services regularly and studying the Lesson-Sermon daily with my husband. I became interested in reading Science and Health through, as well as biographies of Mrs. Eddy. After reading the biographies I thought how much I had missed by not knowing such a person. But she does say in her book The First Church of Christ, Scientist, and Miscellany (p. 120), "Those who look for me in person, or elsewhere than in my writings, lose me instead of find me."

I now am joyful and filled with peace. All resistance is gone, and I find greater freedom daily from self-consciousness, which before had made me feel suddenly conspicuous, so that I would do things, such as bursting into tears or raising my voice, that would later torment me. In place of the resistance has come a deep appreciation and love for Christian Science, and I know that it is the only way for me. I am grateful for the healings I have had through Christian Science, mainly through my own study. Among them are those of kidney disease, backache, the smoking habit, and colds. Also, the healing of self-consciousness, which had always plagued me. The more I understand of my true being as the child of God, the freer I am about this. I become more conscious of God and find myself more interested in others and loving them than in believing myself to be conspicuous.

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