Testimony of Healing December 14, 1918 Issue

I have just been reading the testimonies in the Sentinel,...

Jeannette Ripner

I have just been reading the testimonies in the Sentinel, as is my custom always on its arrival, and I am so filled with gratitude for the healing of all those of whom I have read that I feel impelled to give my own beautiful healing to the world that those who are still suffering may be encouraged and those healed may rejoice as I rejoiced that Christian Science heals mental as well as physical disorders.

My healing was of nervous breakdown and excessive fear. So disturbed was the mental state that I was afraid to be alone and suffered illusions of many kinds. The struggle was long, and as months passed by and yet I was not relieved, I could only get encouragement from reading the testimonies in our Sentinels and Journals. There was a noise in my head which at times hung over me like a weight, and it seemed to me that if it did not stop I would lose my reason; yet I clung to God. I read and prayed and was under Christian Science treatment constantly. My husband often told me that he could see improvement, but I could not seem to realize it; still I held to the truth and finally began to feel a desire to work alone with God. Before this desire had taken form in words to my practitioner, she wrote me saying she felt that now I could work alone, and I was delighted. For two years, however, it was necessary for me to have treatment occasionally. Sometimes discouragement whispered loud, and in tears I sought the one Mind, always receiving comfort and courage just to go on. In all this time I was able to keep outsiders in ignorance of my condition, often laughing when enduring intense mental suffering. I repeat this to show how I was sustained to the end by divine help.

I went back to my home in America, hoping that by going to church and being with those I love I would realize complete healing, but while there was forced again to have treatment. Loving help was given to me and much fear was destroyed, but before complete healing was realized my husband was called back to France. Feeling that my duty was with him I went into a small town in France at a very sad time, after two years of war, and in spite of earnest work on my part was obliged to call on my former practitioner in Florence, Italy, for help. I was under treatment for some months and went through many hard battles, in the meantime leaving France for Italy, where my husband was called on business. Here after faithful work on the part of a kind practitioner I have experienced healing and for some time have been free. During those years of suffering my one aim was to attain a more Christlike character, for if our healing is slow it is certain that there are ugly weeds to be uprooted before the garden can blossom in its beauty. I feel even now that healing has come that it is only the beginning of the path upward; but oh, the joy of striving to serve Truth, knowing as we should that there is but one path to Life eternal and that is divine Science.

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