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Through the fire
As I listened to my first Christian Science church service, I remember thinking, “I’m in heaven.” However, it would be many years before I would gain a higher spiritual understanding of Christian Science and make it my own. I’d spent many years prior to this afraid of God, a prisoner of my own theological and astrological beliefs. I was on a search for something to free me from a life that had become my worst nightmare—a kind of hell in and of itself.
Growing up, I went to church regularly, and it had always been my opinion that most pastors were devout, holy messengers sent from God. I thought they had certain mystical powers. When my pastor gave the sermon each week, he delivered it with a great sense of power and tireless energy. The sermons he preached instilled an abiding sense that God would deliver me from trials—but by the same token, I feared God would also condemn me to horrible things if I did not listen and be obedient. I soon became disillusioned with pastors and religion in general. In the end, I went on a long hiatus from church.
Lost, I began experimenting with astrology. Originally, it was all in fun. But this innocence quickly grew into a practice, to the point of obsession. It affected my family, friends, and, to a degree, my marriage. For decades I relied on the position of the stars and planets to instruct me in day-to-day life—career changes, etc. Even the birth of my daughter centered around this fixation, as I hoped she would be born in a certain month. In addition, I felt securer around individuals who I felt shared things in common with me under our signs.
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August 22, 2011 issue
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Letters
Anna Willis, Heidi Skok, Gary Duke, Barbara Sander, Linda Ross
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A fading concept
Ingrid Peschke, Managing Editor
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Healing: choosing an approach
Polly Castor
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Churches celebrate independence of South Sudan, pledge support of new nation
Fredrick Nzwili and ENI News
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Prayers for wildfires
Jan Keeler
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Walking in the light
By Karen Bailey
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Working for our ‘Father’s business’
By Kathryn Merrill
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God’s child
Craig Luedeman
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The new girl at school
By Jordan Jenkins
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The haircut
Gwyneth Wilson
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Valuing the arts
By Lyle Young
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The promise of eternal salvation
By Elise L. Moore
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Through the fire
By Victoria Gaines
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Heaven, hell, and salvation—in Bible terms
By Shirley Paulson
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Understanding Bell’s hell
By Kim Shippey, Senior Writer
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Talk about what you love
By Thomas Mitchinson
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A new focus on audio content
By John Sparkman
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Hearing and harmony restored
Lynn Mahoney
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‘The fire had no power’
Heidi Macari
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A mother prays for her family
Charlotte Kinney
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The power of one
The Editors