Christian Science entered my life at a time of great personal...

Christian Science entered my life at a time of great personal need. I had such deep feelings of insecurity, perhaps stemming from an early life in foster homes, that I was clinging to a variety of abusive relationships; I experienced rape and threats to my life. At one time I lived with a man who jumped parole and was living under an assumed name—I was that afraid of being alone. My whole concept of love became so completely shattered that I then made efforts to cut myself off from love. Sometimes I would just hide in my room, taking sleeping pills to prolong the escape. Suicide was a constant consideration.

Although I didn't care about love anymore, I still needed to know what the truth of reality was. I had grown up in a mainstream religion that had not answered all my questions about God, or aided me in efforts toward self-improvement. I was also in turmoil about the validity of the Bible. Finally I prayed, "God, if there is any truth to this existence, show me what it is."

April 24, 1995

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