"The sharp experiences of belief...

"The sharp experiences of belief in the supposititious life of matter, as well as our disappointments and ceaseless woes, turn us like tired children to the arms of divine Love," writes Mary Baker Eddy on page 322 of "Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures." These words are indicative of the condition of thought in which Christian Science found me about nineteen years ago.

Every material prop had failed me in my search for God and happiness. When I reached a point where I was passing through the darkest hours of my human experience. I wrote a Christian Science practitioner to "pray that I find God." This practitioner was a member of my family residing in a distant state. He had visited our home, and noting my unhappiness had hinted to me several times that one's own thinking had everything to do with one's health and happiness. But at that time his words fell on deaf ears.

While I believed in a God of some kind, and often spent hours praying and beseeching Him to send me release, even by death, underneath that blind faith was a strong conviction that God was punishing me for my sins, and that I should have to endure these miseries to the end. What that end would be was the mystery I could not fathom. Yet always in my heart I echoed Job's cry, "Oh that I knew where I might find him!"

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