From 1902 to 1907 I speculated in stocks, trying to...

From 1902 to 1907 I speculated in stocks, trying to accumulate a fortune, and was quite successful until the panic of 1907, which swept over the country, carrying with it my entire savings, and leaving me completely destitute, with many obligations and a family to support. Then followed a period of discouragement and despondency, in the midst of which came the thought of suicide. I then planned to have my life insured, pay the first premium, and end it all, thinking this arrangement would take care of the family, and, as it then seemed, be a solution to my problem, not knowing at the time that "matter has no life to lose, and Spirit never dies" (Science and Health, p. 275).

I applied to one of the largest life insurance companies in New York City for a policy, was examined by their physician, and the report came back that I would not be accepted because I had diabetes in its last stages, and could live but one year. Feeling that perhaps there might be some mistake in their diagnosis, I applied to another insurance company, and received the same verdict. Determined not to be defeated in my plans, I went to our family physician, who was connected with the New York City Board of Health at that time, and requested that he give me a thorough examination. He did as requested—not knowing that I had been previously examined by two other physicians—and again the report was identical with that of the other two. As my father had died of this disease, my fear of it was acute; and in order to regain my health I started a very rigid diet, and continued it for about six months, feeling all the while that I was losing ground and slowly drifting out.

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