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THE HOPE THAT SURPRISED ME
FOR MOST of my adult life I had not thought that I wanted to have children. Life with my husband seemed satisfying and complete, my work as a professional musician was absorbing and enjoyable, and we took pleasure in our friends and travel.
Then after ten years of marriage, I found myself gazing out an airplane window at a magnificent sunset and weeping at the thought that I would never have a child to share life with. This was a very new thought for me. So new, that I thought there must be some mistake—maybe it was because we were flying home from my mother-in-law's funeral, where having been together with family had been so comforting. Or maybe it was the Amy Tan novel about mothers and daughters I had been reading on the plane.
But three months later, those feelings had not gone away, and I knew this desire for a child was no momentary whim. With some concern, I told my husband what had come to me. I was amazed—and delighted—to learn that he'd been quietly thinking along the same lines.
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Caryl Farkas practices and teaches Christian Science healing in Madison, Wisconsin.
March 19, 2007 issue
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LETTERS
with contributions from DOUGLAS EASTMAN, TERESA VON CARDINAL, JENNIFER NYLEN, ROSE STACKHOUSE, JAN TRUE JACOBY
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Birth—for non-parents, too
WARREN BOLON, SENIOR WRITER
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ITEMS OF INTEREST
with contributions from Tom Regan, Tim Funk
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CHILDBIRTH—LOVE ANNOUNCING, 'HERE I AM!'
BY KEITH WOMMACK
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CONCEPTION & BIRTH—THE SPIRITUAL BASIS
Warren Bolon with contributions from MARTA GREENWOOD
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LABOR OF LOVE
BY AMY BROOKE BAKER
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THE HOPE THAT SURPRISED ME
BY CARYL EMRA FARKAS
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TIME TO CLEAR OUT THE GUNK
BY MEG WELCH DENDLER
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HURT? FRUSTRATED? PERPLEXED? PRAY!
BY ANTHONY WHITEHOUSE
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Without help? Don't believe it!
Timon Keller
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DELIVERANCE
Bettie Gray
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LESSONS FROM MRS. WOLFE
ROBERT HOLCOMB
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LET'S NOT GET INTO A FLAP
TONY LOBL
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I ACCEPTED GOD'S BLESSING
KAY KEELOR
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FULL FREEDOM REGAINED
DOUG SYTSMA
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LUMP HEALED THROUGH PERSISTENT PRAYER
TERESA J. ALLEN