Testimony of Healing January 29, 1990 Issue

In 1979 I was living in a New York City building on the...

Ewan C. MacQueen, Jr.

In 1979 I was living in a New York City building on the lower East Side. I had quit a job I loved to dedicate my time to fixing up my apartment and to developing my drawing and painting skills. When my money ran out, I found a position similar to the one I had left. Just before the new job was to begin, however, several things happened in my life that opened the door for me to learn of Christian Science.

First among these events was a telephone conversation with one whom I often called when I felt the need for direction. During the course of our conversation, in which we talked in general about fulfillment and happiness, I became aware for the first time that this person seemed to be neither happy nor fulfilled. Suddenly it was as if one of the foundation stones upon which my own happiness depended had dissolved. It was also clear to me that I should not burden this dear friend further with my own problems. But where could I turn?

During that period a relationship ended. I had been seeing a woman friend for over a year, but the relationship had come to a dead end. This in itself was not particularly disturbing, but the fact that so many of the relationships I had entered into, including a marriage, had followed this pattern was very frustrating. The idea of an enduring friendship, a solid relationship, seemed even more elusive. What would it be like to have an enduring friendship? Would I ever have one? These were questions that evaded answers.

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