After two and a half years of graduate education I was mentally...

After two and a half years of graduate education I was mentally and physically exhausted. Despite material rewards from my work, my inspiration was dried up and life seemed without purpose. Years of studying philosophies, theories, and speculations about man's lot and life's eternal struggle made me disillusioned, cynical, and without peace. That peace, justice, or dignity characterized existence was for me a tragic joke.

Although raised in Christian Science and respecting its Tenets, I was too immersed in popular ideas of "reality" to perceive a deeper, spiritual sense of life. But finally the burden of lack of meaning in life became too great, the void of purpose too deep, and the craving for something better too strong. In desperation rather than hope I turned back to Christian Science.

One night, my mind crowded with thoughts of conflict, fear, and doubt, I began reading the chapter on Prayer in the textbook, Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures by Mary Baker Eddy. I came to these lines on page 2, which ever since have helped me maintain a quiet perspective when challenged by tumultuous thinking: "Prayer cannot change the Science of being, but it tends to bring us into harmony with it." For the first time ever, I realized that reality is eternally harmonious, and that all conflict presupposes an erroneous conception of reality. With this thought I fell asleep. The next day, a growth that had developed on my body was gone, leaving no trace.

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