Testimony of Healing May 10, 1930 Issue

It is with a deep sense of gratitude that I acknowledge...

Clara Majer

It is with a deep sense of gratitude that I acknowledge the many benefits and blessings received during the eighteen and a half years that I have been studying Christian Science. Since I first became interested I have turned to no other source for help in time of trouble, sorrow, or sickness, and it has never failed. I did not become interested, primarily, for physical healing, but was attracted to it because of the happy, spontaneous laughter of a new friend who was a student of Christian Science. My own outlook at the time was so dark and dreary, filled with discouragement and fear, that I wondered what anyone could possibly find to be so happy about.

My first big physical healing, which took place after I had been studying Christian Science about a year, stands out to me because, through it, I learned that healing takes place in one's thinking, and that matter being "inert, mindless," as Mrs. Eddy tells us on page 253 of "Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures," the body naturally conforms to our thinking and cannot do otherwise. For years I had been troubled with a cough which had become chronic, and for which I had doctored with specialists for a long time without relief, and as I did much singing, this caused constant annoyance and much distress. Then one evening, as I listened to a wonderful testimony given at one of our Wednesday evening meetings, I realized that I could no longer pray, "Forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors," unless I actually intended to forgive as I hoped to be forgiven. I saw that if I only desired forgiveness as I forgave, I was asking very little, since I rarely forgave anyone and rather prided myself on being a very capable hater. I began to see that words themselves mean nothing if not backed up by actual deeds, and with many misgivings and a good deal of fear, since this was a new experience for me, I wrote an apology to one with whom I was associated in business and to whom I had not spoken for several years. It was almost a week before any notice was taken of my effort at peacemaking, although I occupied an adjoining office. During that time the following verse from the thirty-seventh psalm, which appeared in the Lesson-Sermon in the Christian Science Quarterly that week, was of great help to me: "Commit thy way unto the Lord; trust also in him; and he shall bring it to pass." I knew that I had acted from my highest standpoint of right, and that if I would just trust God sufficiently He would bring the right result to pass. When my apology was finally accepted I experienced a deep sense of gratitude, and a peace and joy that I had never known before. It was perhaps a week later when I realized that the cough, which had bothered me for years, had entirely disappeared, together with the sense of irritation and hate. This healing gave me a slight realization of what Mrs. Eddy means when she says (No and Yes, p. 39), "True prayer is not asking God for love; it is learning to love, and to include all mankind in one affection."

At one time a very severe sprain was instantaneously healed when I realized the need of healing from a mental strain caused by rushing about doing things that were unimportant. When I got to the point, after two days of severe suffering, where I could humbly ask to be forgiven for the things I had left undone, and could honestly say, Lord, use me in Thy service, wherever you want me to serve, I was able to put my foot on the ground and walk. Another time, a very serious intestinal trouble was healed when I learned, in a measure, the difference between human will, human outlining, and the divine will of God and was willing to "pause,—wait on God" (Science and Health, p. 323) for guidance.

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