What I couldn’t lose
When my relationship of several years ended abruptly in the first month of the new school year, I felt abandoned and empty. I found myself blaming God for what had happened. I’d prayed so much about the relationship—asking God over and over if it was the right path. When the relationship had continued, I’d assumed that meant God’s answer was yes, so I didn’t understand why it had suddenly become a no.
I felt God had led me down a road, knowing that I would get hurt in the end. I couldn’t understand how God was leading my life, as I’d learned in Christian Science Sunday School, only to have something like this happen.
I knew that God is Love, and I’d been taught to lean on God and trust His ever-present care. But these thoughts felt hollow to me now, and I couldn’t seem to escape the empty feeling from the loss of this relationship.
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