Victory over a mindless habit

It kept happening—I couldn’t seem to stop biting my fingernails. However, frustrated at the mindlessness of this behavior, I so wanted to find an answer. Over a period of 35 years, I had tried many different supposed remedies for this habit, including painting on awful-tasting nail polish, sitting on my hands, and wearing gloves, and had spent thousands of dollars on acrylic nails. But nothing had stopped the problem for more than six months. In my adult years, the habit had even twice damaged one of my teeth. Most often, I was gnawing on my fingernails without knowing I was doing so. And I was very aware that the pull to bite them was especially pronounced during times of anxiety.

I have been a Christian Scientist my whole life, and I have experienced other healings. So why had I allowed this pattern of behavior to plague me for so long without putting up a better fight—in other words, without taking a stronger spiritual stand in my thought? I know that a problem is never really what it appears to be on the surface. For me, it was never actually about healing a habit or anxiety but about letting go of an insidious belief that I have a mind separate from God and can act in ways outside of God’s control. I knew that God made each one of us spiritual, and that therefore I and all others can truly express only divine Mind, God.