Testimony of Healing October 10, 2005 Issue

INTENSE HEADACHES OVERCOME THROUGH PRAYER

HEATHER MCMULLEN

For a period of about five years, I suffered occasionally from very bad headaches. Sometimes they would leave me incapacitated for a day or two. During part of this time, I owned a small business that involved a lot of driving. There was always a little pressure, albeit self-imposed not to miss a day of work, since I couldn't afford to pay someone to fill in for me.

One morning after I'd just begun the workday, I felt one of these headaches coming on, and immediately became concerned that I might have to go home. I turned to prayer, which was my custom. But I wanted my motive for prayer to be something higher than just overcoming pain or worries about my business. At first, I couldn't get past thinking of the practical ramifications of being absent even for one day. After an hour or two of this train of thought, however, I wasn't feeling any better, and had become even more disturbed about my predicament.

As I sat in my car at a stoplight, I remember feeling very frustrated, and yearning for guidance. Then, as if someone were sitting next to me, I distinctly heard the words, "Just let go." To me, this was an unmistakable angel message from God, assuring me of His presence and love. I looked down at my hands, which were clutching the steering wheel so tightly that it was even slightly uncomfortable to let go. I associated that view of my hands with my mental state, and had to ask myself what I was holding onto mentally—personal responsibility? Was I trying to force myself to feel better? Was I trying to use mere human willpower?

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