In my late teens I was hospitalized for a nervous breakdown...

In my late teens I was hospitalized for a nervous breakdown and then sent to a rehabilitation center for alcoholism. It wasn't long before I was seriously contemplating suicide.

I had many reasons for believing that there was satisfaction in alcohol. I felt it relaxed me, helped me get over my shyness and fear, and also helped me forget all my guilt feelings. Much of this guilt stemmed from the premarital sexual relations that I was engaged in at the time. I had thought I could find happiness through the sexual sharing, but instead I lost respect for myself.

Dancing was what I had studied since I was a young girl, but I was unable to work, since I was so often under the influence of alcohol. So, I would borrow money to support my drinking.

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Testimony of Healing
One time, during my teen years, the open truck in which I...
August 13, 1979

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