Don’t let it harden your heart

I cherish my alone time with God each day. I look forward to digging into the scientific truths that are uncovered during my study of the Bible and the Christian Science textbook, Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures by Mary Baker Eddy. I’ve always found such comfort during my study—even as a child. I remember my parents handing me copies of the Sentinel to keep by my bed so I could read testimonies from other kids who relied on prayer for healing. I loved reading those—they assured me that my daily reliance on God and prayer was not only normal, but effective! Never could I have imagined a time when I would feel that all was lost, when I wouldn’t want to reach out for those comforting truths.

However, not long ago both of my parents passed away, rather suddenly and only a few months apart. I felt completely gutted. I was unprepared to handle what seemed like such a monumental loss. Rather than turn to the Bible and Science and Health for comfort, I found myself pushing them away. I didn’t want anything to do with God. I felt betrayed by everything I’d ever known. It was very lonely and disorienting.