SWEET SURRENDER

CAROL RULLMAN—CHARLOTTESVILLE, VIRGINIA

ALTHOUGH UNKNOWN to me at the time, my vocation as a healer began on a beautiful blue-sky morning in the summer of 2000. My "office" was a floating dock, and it was in this idyllic setting, I'd now say, that I launched my Christian Science healing practice.

On this particular day, I'd needed the ideas from the two books I'd been reading, the Bible and Science and Health, more than ever. In years past, I'd experienced many physical healings as well as character transformation through reading them. But in spite of these proofs, it now seemed that personal health and family problems were too big, too many, and unyielding. And I thought perhaps I'd peaked in my ability to understand Christian Science. I'd even strayed away from the close association I'd enjoyed with my church because of my feelings of inadequacy.

Yet this time, the Comforter—the Science of the Christ—was beckoning my return and promising freedom. Pondering my identity, I asked myself: "Am I a Christian Scientist? I've studied it all my life. But is Christian Science true or not?" As I walked off the dock, back to shore, a passage from Science and Health surfaced as an answer: "Let us rid ourselves of the belief that man is separated from God, and obey only the divine Principle, Life and Love. Here is the great point of departure for all true spiritual growth" (p. 91). It came to me that I wasn't two people—one who loved serving God and one who was struggling with confusion. I had an unbreakable relationship with God which I could explore.

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