I think that I was searching for God my whole life, even though...

Elena Plotnikova

I think that I was searching for God my whole life, even though religion was officially prohibited in Russia. When I felt very bad, I would ask God to help me. When I felt good, I would thank God for all that He was doing for me. When I was given the Bible and began reading it—and up to that time I had never held the Bible in my hands—I saw that my search for God was right. Many things that I had not understood before, became clear to me.

Once I spoke with an American woman about religion. She said, "I'll give you a book to read, and we can talk later about it." She gave me Science and Health by Mrs. Eddy. This book opened the Bible's meaning for me. After I read it, I felt that this was what I had searched for during my whole life: the spirituality of man and the unreality of material life, the denial of evil as totally nonexistent, the affirmation of God as Father-Mother of all on earth. And I found love—full, unconditional love, the love that denies egotism. This made me recognize the family as the ideal relationship between a man and a woman. All this made a big impression on me, changed my life and healed it.

Soon after I found Christian Science I tried to heal myself. I have a large family, and there is always a lot to prepare in the kitchen. Somehow I scalded my hand. It hurt very much, but then I said to myself: "There is no pain. God's love is surrounding you. God is good, He cannot wish evil—pain—for you. Pain is an illusion of mortal mind. It can't come from God; consequently it does not exist." I remembered the words from Science and Health: "Instead of blind and calm submission to the incipient or advanced stages of disease, rise in rebellion against them. Banish the belief that you can possibly entertain a single intruding pain which cannot be ruled out by the might of Mind, and in this way you can prevent the development of pain in the body" (p. 391). I continued with my housework. When I looked at my hand after two hours, I saw that there was hardly a trace of the injury left, and this disappeared by the next day. During those two hours I hadn't looked at my hand and did not feel any pain. And there was also no pain afterward. I was startled that it is possible to be healed that quickly.

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