Article June 19, 1995 Issue

"I cherish no unkindness in memory for you ..."

Pam Chance

Some healings may seem a long time coming. Deep-rooted difficulties feel hard to resolve, but when the truth of Truth hits you, when you feel divine Love lifting you up and sweeping you along in a radiant newness of life, the joy, energy, and celebration know no bounds!

This is how it happened in my life. My mum and I seemed wrapped in conflict from Day One; my childhood, teenage, and even adult years found little security or warmth in this volatile relationship. As I grew up, I felt very insecure, fearful, and resentful. My relationship with my dad was also difficult and frequently confusing. I was swinging between wanting to be part of a loving, accepting family and wanting to be as far away from my parents as possible!

My understanding of God was confused, too. I thought of Him as partial and punishing. I felt that my prayers for help were unanswered. Looking back, I think I was very short on gratitude in all my early relationships. I especially needed gratitude for the most important one of all, my relationship to God, divine Love. "We plead for unmerited pardon and for a liberal outpouring of benefactions. Are we really grateful for the good already received?" writes Mary Baker Eddy in Science and Health (p. 3). Today I realize how much I was loved and guided and protected by divine Love throughout those years. The Bible says, "The Lord thy God, he it is that doth go with thee; he will not fail thee, nor forsake thee" (Deut. 31:6).