Testimony of Healing July 13, 1992 Issue

When I was a child, my parents separated and became rivals...

Ela Pozniak Buchanan

When I was a child, my parents separated and became rivals for my custody. I decided mentally to "fire" them as parents. They both seemed incompetent to me, and I believed I did not want them. I felt particularly at odds with my mother. So I started to act and behave like an orphan, even though both parents were still living. Truly, I was heartbroken. I eventually lived with a family who took me in; I considered those people my "real" parents.

When I was later married and experiencing battles with our three-and-a-half-year-old son, I turned to Christian Science for help. A practitioner pointed out that everyone is truly the child of God, governed by Him in perfect harmony. I felt quite self-righteous, but I came to see that, in regard to raising our children, I was failing. Our son told me that he felt the love of his dad and his baby sister, but did not feel I loved him.

At that point I began to acknowledge that God is our true Parent. I put our son's care as well as my own into the hands of divine Love. I affirmed to myself that our son did not need discipline in the form of rewards and punishments, but rather that God was caring for him tenderly and gently, guiding both of us.

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