When I was very new in the study of Christian Science, I found...

When I was very new in the study of Christian Science, I found myself troubled by a physical condition that greatly alarmed me because of pain and pressure in the heart area. I could not lie down but sat up in bed each night in great fear and discomfort. This went on for some weeks. I went to work every day, but when I came home I prayed and read Science and Health and Mrs. Eddy's other writings in the evening and for most of the night.

The suggestion to seek medical help was very aggressive. But I kept clinging to Mrs. Eddy's writings, even though at times it seemed that the words I was reading were just words instead of powerful declarations of spiritual truth.

At that time I still smoked. I had tried several times to stop and failed. One night as I struggled with fear and pain and tried to understand what I was reading, I suddenly looked at the cigarette in my hand. I put it down and thought, "Here I am trying with every fiber of my being to realize that God, Spirit, has all power, and therefore there is no power or reality in matter. And yet I'm giving this cigarette power to help me, govern me, affect me." From that moment on I never picked up a cigarette again, and what is more, I had no desire to smoke. I was totally free from the habit.

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February 2, 1987

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