Testimony of Healing October 26, 1918 Issue

Language is inadequate to describe the maze of circumstances...

Honta Wolfe

Language is inadequate to describe the maze of circumstances which finally led me to the wonderful truth about God, man, and creation as revealed to this age in Christian Science. As I look back through the years of longing and searching for something more stable than the material affairs of life afforded, I remember the puzzling thoughts that crowded into my consciousness even as a child, for I refused to accept the theological views taught in the Sunday schools, yet ever yearned to know the truth about creation. I never once was tempted to think that God sent evil. Being an intense nature lover, I felt that whatever the creator was, He must have made only the good and the beautiful. When I attempted to think farther than this, I was confronted with the mystery of sin, sickness, and the tragic side of life.

I sought in the different creeds for a solution to all these perplexing questions and wondered why I could not accept the views propounded, as others did. I searched the Bible diligently and was convinced that there was a far deeper meaning to Jesus' teachings than I had yet known, for these passages presented themselves with startling clearness: "I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly," and, "Ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free," with many others that equally arrested my attention. I became so discontented that I severed all connections with religious associations, no longer being able to pretend or claim a satisfaction that was not felt. I was suffering from several supposedly inherited diseases and had undergone a critical operation which left me in a worse condition than before, for as a result of it I became a nervous wreck and finally an intense fear of insanity developed.

It is useless to dwell on the tortures of that experience—the sleepless nights, the fears and mental forebodings. Three physicians treated me during this time and each honestly endeavored to give me relief. Finally I could not care for my home, so my husband took me to my relatives. While there I was advised by one whose little son had been healed of infantile paralysis to try Christian Science. Like many others I failed to heed this advice but suffered awhile longer. The seed took root, however, for one day after a night of agony I prayed God to help me, and the still, small voice bade me obey. I went immediately to a Christian Science practitioner, and shall never forget the ineffable peace that came over me as she so compassionately said: "God is Love. He does not send suffering nor sickness nor death, and you can be free from this bondage." From that moment I began to be a "new creature."

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