Thinking about suicide?

Originally appeared online in the teen series: Trending - May 12, 2020

I was panicking. It was almost the end of my freshman year of college, and I had no idea how I was going to pay for the next year’s tuition. Because of a bad business deal, my parents had lost their savings, and it seemed like all the existing financial resources had been tapped. Walking across campus that day, I felt as though I couldn’t see any solution or future for me. 

I was in a dark mental place with no one to turn to for support or encouragement. The temptation to give in to self-destructive thoughts—to “escape”—was strong.

These thoughts, however, were new to me. Up until then, I’d had dreams of making a good future for myself. But now it seemed like all my plans had reached a dead end. What was the point of living?

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