Testimony of Healing September 23, 1996 Issue

When I got married, it's sad to say, I actually went into it with...

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When I got married, it's sad to say, I actually went into it with the idea that if things didn't work out I could always get a divorce. I had been living with my fiancé for two years, then left him for another man. After some prayer on my part, I decided I wanted to marry my former fiancé after all. Although the step to marriage was certainly progress, I did not make any particular commitment to moral law. Therefore, even though I was now living in obedience to this law, I was doing so by circumstance rather than demonstration.

Needless to say, my marriage was a shaky one at the beginning! After a few years I was convinced that my husband wasn't giving me the attention that I needed, and I honestly believed that my only three choices were: get divorced, have an affair, or be unhappy and lacking in love for the rest of my life! I eventually found myself in a situation where the second choice seemed very attractive.

At the same time this happened, I was also renewing my study of Christian Science, studying more seriously than I ever had in my life, and also really desiring Church in my life. I had even gone so far as to apply for membership in a local branch church, and had asked a teacher of Christian Science for an application for class instruction. I was devastated when I was turned down for membership in the church, and was smart enough to figure out that I wasn't ready for class, so I returned the application to the teacher. I see now that the error that claims man is mortal and can live outside of divine Principle was trying to hold me in bondage even as I was making strides toward understanding my freedom as a spiritual idea!

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