'A change in human belief'

Originally published in Der Christian Science Herold

For years I'd been suffering from gallstones and from the severe pains that regularly accompanied them. I had gone to see doctors when I had acute gallstone colics, to get relief from the pain through medication. Almost all of the doctors had advised an operation. But I was afraid of surgery.

Since I thought what I ate might be contributing to the gallstones, my way of dealing with this was to avoid certain foods. But the list of foods that I didn't think I should eat became longer and longer.

Another reason for the gallstone colics, I felt, was my anger. So I made an effort to think more positively and to stay away from negative thoughts. But I didn't succeed too well. I kept encountering situations in my life that caused me to react angrily. And then right away I would have this fear: "If you react, the pain will come back!" And often it did. Then, in addition to the pain, I had to deal with feelings of guilt: "This is your own fault—because you got angry again."

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January 10, 2005

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