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I was never alone
My PARENTS DIVORCED when I was in grade school. It was a messy, bitter breakup that left me feeling insecure and wanting to avoid change. My mother monitored our phone calls. She only allowed us to talk to our dad for five minutes a night, and when the timer went off, we had to end our conversation. Once, when I was home alone, I called my dad. The phone rang 232 times. When he finally picked up, I closed my eyes in relief. I always felt better when I could hear his voice.
We were finally allowed to go live with our dad, where for the first time in a long while I felt safe. I had little contact with my mother from then on. When there was communication, however, it was always turbulent. I also started going to a Christian Science Sunday School, where God, and my relationship with Him, began to become clear to me. It was there that I learned I never really lacked anything by not having a mother. I was learning that God was and is my Mother and my Father.
When I began to start dating years later, a pattern emerged—I continually picked men who were emotionally unavailable. They were often mentally abusive and liked to play games or try to manipulate me, something I wouldn't realize was happening until I was sucked in and emotionally attached.
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Laura Stumbaugh is the production coordinator at the Puget Sound Business Journal in Seattle.
December 1, 2003 issue
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An honest buck
Jewel Simmons
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letters
with contributions from Daria A. Marmaluk-Hajioannou, Chris Snow, Janet Wright, Marilyn P. Otth
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items of interest
with contributions from Sarah Sturmon Dale
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Inclined to honesty
By Margaret Rogers
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Integrity in financial markets
By Dave Hohle
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FOCUS on the TRUE PICTURE
By Norm Bleichman
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I had to tell the TRUTH
By Dorothy Maubane
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Honesty prevails amid tax evasion allegations
By Scott C. Jenkins
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Flight forces
By Jeffrey Hildner
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A lesson in GIVING
By Dorothea Hertzberg
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I was never alone
By Laura Stumbaugh
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Lies and videotape
By Kim Shippey
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What hath spam wrought?
By Warren Bolon
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A choice for spiritual healing of severe injury
Catharine Brant with contributions from Bill Brant
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Humble prayer brings freedom from pain
Marta M. Char de Chaves
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Restoring public trust
Editor