Testimony of Healing December 15, 1997 Issue

When our first child was stillborn I was utterly devastated

Winifred B. Bayley

When our first child was stillborn I was utterly devastated. The doctors performed numerous tests on my husband and me and the baby, but they could find no cause for the stillbirth. It was then that I realized the comfort and healing I longed for would be found only in the study of Christian Science. I had attended a Christian Science Sunday School until I was about fourteen years old. Now I turned wholeheartedly to its teachings. This healing of grief over the loss of the baby was a long and difficult road to travel, for there was much doubt and fear to contend with. In her book Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures, Mary Baker Eddy speaks of such a mental state, pointing out: "To break this earthly spell, mortals must get the true idea and divine Principle of all that really exists and governs the universe harmoniously. This thought is apprehended slowly, and the interval before its attainment is attended with doubts and defeats as well as triumphs" (p. 39).

The Wednesday evening testimony meetings were a rock for me to cling to, for I felt that if these people could heal and experience God's goodness, then certainly I could be healed of my grief.

One Wednesday as I drove to church I kept thinking, "If only I could be healed, I'd know that Christian Science is the truth." Almost immediately the thought came, "When I know this is the truth, I'll be healed." And so it turned out. My grief was healed, and we later had a boy and, subsequently, a girl born to us.

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