I have had many healings in Christian Science...

I have had many healings in Christian Science, but there is one in particular for which I am most grateful. As a teen-ager I went through a period of depression. I felt utterly hopeless and unloved, and I began to feel hatred for others and myself. I often considered suicide, yet I knew from what I had learned as a child in the Christian Science Sunday School that killing myself would not solve anything.

During my first year of college I experienced the worst state of depression yet. But this time I was really tired of it. I wanted to be loved and to be able to love others. I believe these longings were the beginning of my healing. In Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures by Mary Baker Eddy we read (p. 1): "Desire is prayer; and no loss can occur from trusting God with our desires, that they may be moulded and exalted before they take form in words and in deeds." I had a desire to feel love and to see good.

At one point I was in such a bad frame of mind that I knew I needed help. I called a Christian Science practitioner to pray with me. She, in a loving, caring voice, asked me what she could do to help me. I said, "Everything!" We covered a wide range of topics, and as we talked she gently corrected my false concepts with the spiritual truths of being. She explained to me that since God is Love and He is ever present, I could not be unloved. Also, since man is made in God's image and likeness—my true nature—I naturally expressed love and so did everyone else. Concerning life, she explained that since God is Life and God is good, life must be and in reality is good. It was just misconceptions that were preventing me from seeing all this good.

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Testimony of Healing
When I was a sophomore in college I became very ill
September 15, 1986

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