Testimony of Healing May 6, 1905 Issue

Before coming to Christian Science for the help I needed,...

L. N. Newbre

Before coming to Christian Science for the help I needed, I had pondered often over the "God" and "heaven" of which I had been taught; but my pondering was a groping in darkness where no ray of light might enter. It caused me so much uneasiness that I could not feel drawn to unite with the church, as many of my friends had done. I felt little sympathy and was not at all satisfied, for while I was not religiously inclined. I had as have we all, the instinct to seek and know the "Father"; but I could not find Him as it seemed to me He ought to be known in religious experience. My Bible reading, which, because of my lack of spiritual perception and true understanding, was neither frequent nor comforting, failed also to satisfy my hunger; but had I been willing to seek diligently in the way of His appointing, the bread was right at hand. My mother had, several years previous, been healed of many diseases through Christian Science, and was an earnest student of its teachings. Her application to the serious study of Science and Health by Mrs. Eddy, had done the healing work. I accepted her help gratefully in illness, and was healed of many ailments, but being socially very much occupied and finding pleasure therein, I chose rather to direct my gratitude to my mother personally, than to gain an understanding of the Principle of being for myself.

Finally, in great grief, when human sympathy availed me nothing. I sought and found in Science and Health the comfort promised me if I would but read, for I there found God—the God I longed for, who embraces all, an infinity of Love and harmony. To know that whatever the seeming, we are one with Him, never separate from the divine Principle who governs absolutely, showed me that sorrow cannot shut out joy, although I could not demonstrate immediately, in its wholeness, the certainty I felt of this truth. During the four years since that time, proofs of God's love and care have been more than I could tell. The conditions attending the birth of my girl baby were to me convincing evidence of the power of Truth, while her subsequent growth, the unfolding of a beautiful character, has attended the realization of ever-present Love and Truth.

Who can wonder that we love Mrs. Eddy and give thanks for her work, when by her spirituality she has been able to make clear the teaching of the Wayshower, and his life-purpose, and by her love for all mankind to direct us as a mother would her erring children whose growth in grace was not sufficient to meet the daily need. Where formerly I used to wonder why I should be selected, above others no better than myself, to endure trials and griefs, I am now able to silence self-love and self-justification by knowing that every trial met and overcome is a purification; and that in proportion as we yield with true appreciation to the correction of divine Love do we grow in the realization of Life as God, and manifest that Mind "which was also in Christ Jesus," loving our neighbor as ourselves.

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