How I really (really) forgave my ex-husband

Originally appeared on spirituality.com

My unhappy marriage had ended and the divorce was final. But I still felt trapped. I was haunted by painful memories and the disappointment of being stuck with a life I hadn’t planned on or wanted.

I knew I had to stop ruminating over the past and start living more fully in the present, but it was hard.

I had been a prayerful person, but as our marriage deteriorated I only prayed intermittently. It wasn’t easy for me to turn to God at that time—I felt like He’d really let me down. I’d done my best to serve God and be a good wife, and still my ex-husband had treated me badly. I couldn’t understand why this miserable experience had happened to me. I felt unprotected and vulnerable.

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