Infertility concern dissolves
My husband and I had been married for five years. Although we both wanted children and took no measures to prevent pregnancy, I had not conceived. We had a house with plenty of space for a family, but I began to wonder whether it would be possible for us to have children.
That was when I reached out to God with my whole heart. Rather than asking what was wrong with me or whether I should be a mother, I found myself praying, “God, what is Your will? What do You want me to do?” This thought-provoking question completely changed the way I approached the whole situation. It helped me see that it was all about loving God, who is Love itself. All that mattered was loving God and expressing that love toward others.
From that time on, it didn’t matter to me whether we had a baby or adopted one. Whatever happened, I would be satisfied doing God’s will, and this felt better to me than anything in the world. It was both freeing and humbling to know that doing the will of God could fulfill my own desires. Knowing deep down that what I was really looking for was spiritual good made me happy. This revelation brought me a deep-seated peace.
That very month I learned that I was pregnant. Nine months later, our baby was born, and a few years later I had another child.
Some years after this, I was inspired to share my experience at a Wednesday testimony meeting at my branch Church of Christ, Scientist. The scriptural readings that night included the story of Hannah, who cried to God about her infertility. The Bible says that God heard her petition, and she conceived a son. It reminded me of how I had, like Hannah, “poured out my soul before the Lord” (I Samuel 1:15), and I couldn’t help but share my gratitude for my experience during the testimony part of the meeting.
As I left the meeting that evening, I felt as though I were giving my whole heart to God all over again, loving God and embracing in my heart all who might be wanting to grow their families. From my own experience, it was clear to me that I had no power to create life. I understood from my study of Christian Science that Life is God, without beginning or end, and that all of creation is a reflection of the Life divine. As Mary Baker Eddy, the Discoverer of Christian Science, puts it, “Multiplication of God’s children comes from no power of propagation in matter, it is the reflection of Spirit” (Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures, p. 303).
I knew that praying to better understand a spiritual concept of life would continue to bless others, and that the testimony meeting was a healing one. The Christ, God’s healing message, was surely reaching humanity.
A little less than a month after that testimony meeting, a couple I was friends with shared the happy news that they were expecting, after trying for some time. They welcomed into their home a beautiful baby girl several months later.
Long before I was married or even thinking about having children, I found it interesting to learn in a conversation with my father that his mother had been told that she couldn’t have children. After her diagnosis, she sought treatment from a Christian Science practitioner and had two babies as a result. It confirmed for me without a doubt that Christian Science heals.
For this Science, I am eternally grateful. I love its churches, teachers, and practitioners—who support and heal—and I’m so grateful for the love that Christian Science teaches for others and for the world.
South Portland, Maine, US