Testimony of Healing January 30, 2006 Issue

FREED FROM DEPRESSION

ALEX COOK

About seven years ago, I became gripped by an overwhelming self-consciousness and fear. I was almost constantly afraid of making mistakes. I felt a great pressure to be "perfect" all the time, and that this "perfection" was my responsibility. It was a terrifying burden to be constantly comparing myself to a standard of human flawlessness, and I lived in fear of not measuring up. The fear left me feeling depressed and trapped.

After a while, I called a Christian Science practitioner and asked her to pray for me. Part of our prayer was about correctly identifying me as the reflection of God. She and I both knew that there was no bad or guilty self connected to me as God's reflection. Still, I felt as though I was constantly under attack.

Months went by, and I thought of little except my desire to be healed. I could not see a way out of this depressed state, yet I knew with unshakeable conviction that there is nothing that can't be healed by God. At times I felt so weighed down by what I thought was my responsibility to be perfect that I knew it was only the promise of healing that allowed me to see any worth in living.

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