Testimony of Healing February 19, 1944 Issue

When a child I was instantaneously...

Louise Buckmier

When a child I was instantaneously healed through Christian Science of an illness that had occurred frequently over a period of several years. The first question I put to the practitioner was, "In this big world, how did God know where I was?" At that time I believed that God was corporeal, seated in His throne in heaven, ready to punish or bless as He saw fit. The wise practitioner, realizing the wide scope of such a question, replied that if I attended the Christian Science Sunday School the following Sunday I would learn about God. This I did, and during the many years that have followed I have been learning more and more about Him.

In Science and Health (p. 587), Mrs. Eddy gives us this definition of God: "The great I am; the all-knowing, all-seeing, all-acting, all-wise, all-loving, and eternal; Principle; Mind; Soul; Spirit; Life; Truth; Love; all substance; intelligence." It was indeed a shock to me to find such a definition of God. How could I pray to a God who was intangible? How could I take my problems to Mind, Truth, Love? Many times I found myself praying to a corporeal God and feeling more sure that He would answer my questions than when I endeavored to approach Him as Christian Science taught.

Mrs. Eddy says (ibid., p. 571), "Know thyself, and God will supply the wisdom and the occasion for a victory over evil." I was very much afraid of storms, and when away from home and a storm would suddenly appear I used to insist on going home. My husband and I were at a dinner party when such an incident occurred. Not only was my husband embarrassed by my actions, but after the storm had subsided I felt I could never face those friends again. I did some very sound thinking. Why did I feel more free at home? Why did I dread to take a vacation which took me away from home? I had to answer these questions honestly, and found that I was still holding to the belief of a corporeal Father, who could not keep watch over me if I were in different parts of the city or country. I took the Concordance to Science and Health and began an earnest study of the word "God," trying to understand the definition as given on page 587 of the textbook.

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