Healing and love in my life
I was eight years old when my mom began attending a Church of Christ, Scientist. When I went to the Christian Science Sunday School, I liked the definition of God on page 587 of Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures by Mary Baker Eddy: “The great I am; the all-knowing, all-seeing, all-acting, all-wise, all-loving, and eternal; Principle; Mind; Soul; Spirit; Life; Truth; Love; all substance; intelligence.” It just made sense to me that God was not a big man.
In college, I was majoring in voice performance. At the end of my sophomore year, the head of the voice department told me that for my degree program I would be required to go to a doctor to see if I had nodules on my vocal cords that could be causing a break in my voice. The department head had been a successful opera singer in New York. To him, my voice sounded “out of joint,” and this was an issue that he could not understand or see a solution to.
Before going to the doctor, I called a Christian Science practitioner. I also told her that I was dating a boy I was serious about and that he had said he loved me but wasn’t sure about me being a Christian Scientist. The practitioner agreed to pray for me.
When I went to the doctor, I told him that I was a Christian Scientist and that I knew I didn’t have anything wrong with my vocal cords. After examining me, he said there was, indeed, nothing wrong. I told the department head what the doctor had said, and that I knew I could sing. He let me continue my studies on probation. I was so grateful for the practitioner’s prayerful support!
As I continued to listen for God’s guidance, I was inspired to take six lessons in the summer from a new voice teacher. She said that my voice had changed like a boy’s, which was not common. I practiced the exercises she gave me and prayed consistently with the practitioner. My prayers included the idea that I was God’s reflection and that nothing could interfere with God’s voice.
In July, I sang at a Christian Science youth convention in Texas, glorifying God the whole time. At the convention, I learned that God had only good in store for me and my boyfriend, and that if he and I were meant to be together, we would be, and if not, then something better would naturally unfold. I felt at peace.
My boyfriend was now working in another city, and when he came up to see me, I peacefully told him what I had learned about our relationship through my studies in Christian Science. Afterward, he wrote me letters that said that I had accepted him for who he was, but he had not accepted me. He started going to a Christian Science church. At one point, when he was playing racquetball, he twisted his ankle. He saw it swell up. He prayed as he had learned in church and had a healing. Having this healing led him to quit drinking alcohol and smoking. At Thanksgiving, he asked me to marry him, and I happily accepted.
At the end of the semester, I had my vocal jury, which is a time when you are judged and graded by your instructors. Afterward, the head of the voice department followed me out and apologized. He said it was a miracle that I was able to sing so well and that he might have to go to my church!
When I later became a soloist at a Christian Science church, one weekend I had all the symptoms of laryngitis. I’d had class instruction in Christian Science, so I called my teacher for help. Before I would get up to sing, I would always pray and know that I reflected God, that there was one harmonious “hearing ear” and one “seeing eye” and that that is what everyone heard and saw. (This comes from a passage in the Bible: “The hearing ear, and the seeing eye, the Lord hath made even both of them” [Proverbs 20:12].) When we talked, my teacher added, “One singing voice.”
I sang every note except one high note. After the service, a lady came up to me and told me that was the most beautiful solo I had ever sung. I was almost in tears with gratitude for the healing!
Since being married, my husband and I have been unified in praying about any challenges we have had. We are both so grateful for Christ Jesus’ ministry of healing, and grateful to Mrs. Eddy for discovering, demonstrating, and explaining the divine laws that are Christian Science.