Healed of heart trouble and financial worries
Our younger child recently graduated from college. Our seats for the graduation ceremony were in almost the exact same place as the seats we’d had for her freshman orientation, reminding me of a life-changing healing I’d had four years earlier.
My parents had paid for my college education, so I believed that it was right for me to pay the expenses for my two kids, who were going to start college one year apart. Each in turn visited campuses, submitted applications, and waited for the acceptances and scholarship offers. During this time, I was trying to grow two businesses and save enough money for eight years of college tuition.
There I sat in the freshman orientation presentation, feeling the pressure and anxiety of two kids’ college payments crushing me. My heart began to race, murmur, and beat hard, to the point that I had to leave my seat and walk out of the arena. I knew that a medical treatment facility and a Christian Science Reading Room were both not far away and that I was walking toward them both at that moment. At a fork in the road, I decided to go to the Reading Room. The fear was strong, but as a lifelong Christian Scientist, I was used to praying when faced with any difficulty, so I knew this was the right choice for me. The Reading Room attendants welcomed me and, after a brief conversation, invited me to use a back room with a closed door where it was quiet and I could be alone.
I called a Christian Science practitioner and asked for treatment through prayer. As I lay on a couch, the practitioner spoke to me about my true identity as a child of God and reminded me that I was made “in the image of God” (Genesis 1:27). She was declaring my innocence, making the case for my spiritual identity as an attorney defends a client in court. It reminded me of the judge declaring the defendant not guilty in the allegorical court case that Mary Baker Eddy, the Discoverer and Founder of Christian Science, writes about in Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures (see pages 430–442). I was drifting into unconsciousness, but the practitioner was arguing clearly for my God-given innocence and perfection through the speaker of my cellphone.
I realized I had been facing these same challenges for a decade, and five years prior to this, I had lain in bed with the same symptoms. At that time, I was praying to better understand each of the names for God given in Science and Health that express His nature and wholeness: Mind, Spirit, Soul, Principle, Life, Truth, and Love. I thought of them as bricks that made up a wall that protected me from illness and fortified my being. When I felt God as Love and knew I stood on the foundation of divine Truth, I heard God say my name. It was like a biblical experience, and I felt it to my core. I was healed immediately. All the symptoms vanished into their “native nothingness” (Science and Health, p. 365).
I have always been inspired by the stories about Jesus raising Lazarus from the dead, Peter raising Tabitha, Paul raising Eutychus, and Elijah raising the son of the widow of Zarephath. These accounts proved the unreality of death.
In the Reading Room that day, I realized that the murmuring of my heart was not unlike the murmuring of the Israelites as Moses guided them through the wilderness, where they were provided with manna from heaven and water flowing from a rock. How could they murmur after these great examples of God’s care? I realized that I had experienced a decade’s worth of healings, including of the fear of not being able to pay for college, yet I was still murmuring like the Israelites.
I knew that, regardless of matter-based perceptions of life and death, I am always with God, always spiritual, and therefore, always alive. When I decided to release myself completely into the arms of Love, my Father-Mother God, and trust Her completely, I felt comfortable, at ease, at peace, and loved, as a little child resting in his mother’s arms. After a few moments of calm and tranquility, I suddenly revived.
The practitioner was still talking to me through my phone’s speaker. I told her that I was healed, and said “wow” about ten times. I was transformed. The practitioner recommended that I sit for a while and mentally express my gratitude to God, which I did. Then I walked back to the college orientation events and celebrated my daughter’s new college experience.
I walked, ate, and rejoiced the rest of the day as if nothing had happened—because nothing truly had happened but good. I was always in God’s care. I was always spiritual, and suffering was never the reality.
I love Christian Science healing. Not only are physical problems, financial concerns, and fear all healed, but we gain an improved way of thinking that benefits all aspects of daily life. Following this healing four years ago, I never experienced these symptoms again. And the icing on the cake is that the businesses have thrived, providing abundant supply to pay for two college educations and now master’s degrees for my son and daughter.
Larkspur, Colorado, US